let me be the one

today was going very very well. i was having one of the greatest days and actually great week so far till tonight. everything and everyone crushed me into pieces. it was hard for me to keep everything in and not show any sign of depression or sadness. i feel used, betrayed, not wanted, isolated, and the big one is DISRESPECTED. i feel bad for myself cause i feel like i'm doing anything right or just making wrong choices. It's beeeeen soooo hard on me and i just wanted to cry. i'm not home and i'm not myself or i'm back to how i was was a couple days back. my heart hearts and i just want to leave already. i'm soo sick and tired of this. cause it's making me ehhhh. i'm done and i'm tired and i want rest. so much stuff came to me all at once and i'm sooo stressed and trying to figure out why am i here? or as my title said:

Let Me be The One. which means i should be the one to take stand and just leave. i should just take myself and see where i would be useful. i should just leave. i should just go somewhere where i feel happy and safe, i should be the one to just say goodbye. let me be the one. "i just need this to get off my chess, so let me be the one to break it up."

i'm done and i'm tired. sooo let's just say i lost faith but i'm praying that i have HOPE.......