feeling the same/ new

said in my last blog, " i'm tired." well i still am. but someone makes me smile everyday i see her. although i don't see her in person as long as i know that's she's okay i'm smiling. right now i just saw her picture and my smile is wrapped around my face and made my jaw hurts. that's how much she is important to me. i really do miss her and i hope she knows that. but knowing that she can't be mine soon i know that she'll be there for me later down the line. as everyone knows GOD has many plans for me later on the future. but this weekend gave me time to reallly think about my life. i'm very tired and i just hope you guys realize if i'm not myself you know why. but i'll try my best to have a smile on my face everyday! but it's hard. i've been crying these past couple of days and it's beeeeeeen so HARD on me but i just have to accept everything and move on. i hope you guys continue to pray for me cause prayer does work. thanks for everything especially to those people who are always there for me no matter what. i thank you guys soo much and i don't know how to repay you guys. i don't have to metion names caus eyou know who you are. and Thanks again. For that special someone i hope that you realize that i'm here for you no matter what and guys if you wondering why i'm sad adn all it's not about thirl girl problem. theres so many things you guys don't kow about me but yea. I'll talk to you guys later and thank you again. God bless bye!