crying

Last night was the worst night i had so far in 2009. to tell you guys teh truth i cried. idk why but there soo many things going on right now and i don't think i could handle it. it's sooo hard and i'm tired. i didn't sleeep but it's cool i woke up to warm texts this morning. lastnight i didn't know who to turn to. i was soo confused and i didn't know who i was gonna call. i thought i was gonna die because i was CRYING. like idk. i'm just really thankful i made it alive to right this blog but i just hope y better days will come. and i just... idk today is my grandpa's birthday although he's in heaven we're still gonna celebrate afterschool imma go to his grave but yea! okay imma end this with just hoping for the best. :/