depression

life has been such a struggle for me these pass couple of days. everything is just hitting me right now. so many obstacles i faced but i just didn't tell anyone. my pain has just been bottled up inside myself and i need time to let it out. i may seem fine but deep inside i'm hurting alot. so many things has been brought up and so many memories came up. some of them are bad. i just realized that my life is not perfect and it's great. i always tell my self that the better days will come but when? i've been waiting to long. it may seem that i'm selfish but i'm not. i'm tired and i wannnnna give it rest. i'm not saying to you guys that i wanna die but i'm tired. idk what's wrong with me but lately i've been feeling that i'm useless and that i'm starting to loose my faith. i'm trying to so hard to get my faith back cause i don't feel the same. GOD i need prayer and strenth. for you people reading this please pray for me. i really need prayer. the hard times i'm going through right now is reflecting on me so hard! sorry but i'll say more in a bit!